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I am a director, producer and the stage manager of own life. I the main actress, the costumier, the display arranger and the operator. I the sound producer though in reply to my retorts, I sometimes receive not that is in my script written by me. And then I need to improvise a little. Though, usually, I precisely know, what I will be said.
What to be an eternal actress? The life passes. And I play it. I think up everything and I play. As in dolls. Only dolls are true and, quite alive people.
It is terrible, when inside me the true girl lives, and I all deface and best impulses and most light feelings I transform in game.
Not all roles turn out and not for all I am given Oscar. The relatives sometimes feel, that it is only a game. A play of words, light, smiles and gestures. Game, in which I always have a leading role. The happiness, sadness, surprise and full delight - what can be easier? Do you want love or hatred? Or maybe, desire and thirst of revenge? It is not a pity to me. I can also it. It becomes not interesting because of that almost all roles are played. And I start to repeat.
I am ready to sell copyrights to all my "films" and to cease to play. I do not want to know, what I will be answered and what I'll say about it. While there is my "film" there passes all my life which could be absolutely another, if i am not an actress. An actress of a life.
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