Welcome to my reality

I'm going anywhere with this girl... I'm at a lost.
After a fabulous cuddling eveving with her, I haven't been able to exchange more than a few words with her. Ok, she was doing this paper for class but still!!
The thing I that frustrates me the most the fact the she simply ignored my SMS. It's only polite to answer a SMS.
I'm thinking in dumping her but not because she is all freaking bipolar but because I'm going crazy. The more I see this girl the more I fall in love and everytime she ignores me the next day, it breaks my heart.
I asked what she wants from me but she wouldn't tell me. I believe she wants something nice with although I don't know what it is and I don't think I can go on like this anymore.

I just want to find some other girl because this one is breaking me apart.

Lately, I’ve been seeing this girl but the thing between each other is really strange. The thing that is not strange at all is the fact that is just 19 years-old, at least compared to other things.
We got along really well from the beginning. She is very independent woman or at least appears to be. We saw each other a few times although we haven’t gone out on a date since we met. It’s what happens when you are neighbours. One day, we were in her flat talking about nothing and in a moment that she is laughing I reach out and kiss her. She kisses me back and we make out for a while. There was conflict inside her because she mumbled a few times “what am I doing?”.
That evening she told me just before I went home that she was of relationships and that this had been a problem in the past for her. I told her that I thought we had potential for a good relationship but I was better to take things easy and see how things develop.
I’ve showed her a few times that I like her and that I want to spend more time with her but she is kind of distant. Well, here lies the problem. Her words and her actions are contradictory.
She says things like “I didn’t miss you” or “You just want me as a toy” or “I’m kind of busy so maybe we shouldn’t see each other tonight”.
BUT... one day I talked we her for 45 minutes before I reached out and kissed her and just after that she complained that I was taking too long. Every time I asked her to come by my flat she came although she had said that she wouldn’t come. Also, when I have her holding by the waist and she says she has to go to study, she doesn’t actually make any effort to leave.
She told me that sometimes she likes being mean but she says things that get me really confused.
My theory is that she is testing me to see if I can stand her and not take things personally. When will she stop testing me?

I have a question:
How should you kiss a girl for the FIRST time?

a) You should build up the moment, touching her before in her arm or hair and slowly approach her looking her in her eyes until reach for the kiss.

b)reach your hand behind her back, pull her in with light touch and wait a couple of seconds after your bodies touch until you kiss her.

Should you build up the moment or be more passionate?

The girl I wrote about in my last (and first entry) is leaving tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. I met her 2 weeks ago and this time it wasn't so bad. We actually had a nice time but I didn't feel the chemistry anymore. I had thought of sending her a SMS so meet her tonight but I just didn't feel motivated to do so.
I wanted to say goodbye with a nice kiss that she wouldn't forget so soon but she kind of blew it the other day.
Maybe I'll see her tomorrow afternoon for a cup of coffee (no kiss though) just to say goodbye and to be polite about thing that never happened between each other.
This is also a lesson for me: if things go well in the first date, just kiss her.
You can't undo a kiss but that's the beauty of it. Once you've crossed that bridge, you've made a statement...

I've got a confession to make....

I hate boring people! It's true, I really do.

It doesn't take much to have fun when I go out with a girl. It's that male-female chemistry that makes jokes more fun, the drinks taste better and music more danceable.
So, I ask you... I do girls ruin a fun night out?
When I go out with my mates, I know for sure that we are going to have a great time. Somehow, with girls this is not always the case.
I think the difference is that with guys, everyone is competing for providing entertainment and this creates a positive feedback. I imagine girls sometimes are just willing to get entertained and are not willing to provide some entertainment themselves.

I've just realised this although now that I think about it, this happenned to me recently. After a very pleasant first date, the girl was just not the same in the second one. Maybe she was tired or something but the reality was that I was looking forward to the end of that date.
I think the girl is still into me but I don't expect calling her any time soon.
It is really too bad, but especially for her because she is the one with the very short friend list.

If you feed on someone's energy without giving it back, don't expect them to be coming around any time soon.